Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Corrigendum

The word "fathom" came from the ancient measuring techniques for sailors. And then came the say, "Fathom the depth of the sea". This particular unintentional abstraction of this post isn't meant to be as deep as sea. May be this isn't deep at all. Its superficial. In fact its just at the surface.
This post is a result of the word corrigendum. I just have it on my mind now and I don't know why. Corrigendum? I don't think so.
A few days ago I watched a documentary of GOOGLE peoples about Second Life.online Apart from the bafflement and astonishment and algorithms I thought deeply as we all would have done. And now I realize that all the time I am leading a second life. I watch movies, I read books, I go roaming around, I eat, I drink, I travel and I blog too. In someway I find it hard not to entail that in all my activities I am either running away from something or getting overindulged with some other thing in my life. I wouldn't be surprised if others find it the same way too as I am not different. Once I was called "sentimental", I always take it as an offense. Somehow, for me it was the exact opposite of professional, I always like this word and I would feel terrible. Speaking on the same note don't raise your finger at me with arguments as I already have mentioned that this is totally superficial. The only person who has the right to judge me is my boss at work. Rest can keep the change.
A senior once told me that if your life is full of fights then your life is interesting for which you had fought and are fighting and will fight. That makes your life interesting. The way we wanted it gets sort of changed, and the way we perceive it is rather disgruntled.
But, do there always have to be a QUACK in our mind? I don't know what it is and I guess I will never find out what it is or to be honest that I never want to find out.
But why the word "Corrigendum" all of a sudden find its place in my mind?
Anyways, as I was talking about the QUACK of all of our lives, somehow we or better I do try to keep is at a safe distance from my ears. And I watch movies, I read books, I go roaming around, I eat, I drink, I travel and I blog too for the very same reason. Somehow I find my way into these things and try to overhear the quack. For all I know I do enjoy my hobbies and (since very few have the ability to do things I can achieve) I begin to feel myself in those things playing characters, having opinions, expressing anger or joy or whatever. And there it is, Second Life.
As of this moment I am online on one laptop and watching "Wonder Years" on the other (partly bragging and partly telling that I have access to these things) and also with this word which Shakespeare knows why is called "corrigendum" and supposedly means "mistake" and filled with a gust of hating the QUACK and self for the betterment of the same self for the near future. Do I need both the laptops at the same time? No. Then why the hell do I have both switched on? May be I am feeling like a laptop now, may be like the hard drive or the random memory storage. And again how on earth feeling like a laptop would mean something to me or how would be related to be my nonstop Second Life?
I have a clue. May be gashing out these would make me feel better or at least otherwise.

May be I should just ...

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Random

Its 2.17 am. I just reached home. My room mates are asleep. These random thoughts begin to barge me. Should I just sleep? How can I sleep without feeling sleepy? Am I tired? Of course I am tired. Am I sleepy? No I am not. Its 2.18 am.

Yesterday my senior from IIT or in better word my collegue or still better my friend reached Mumbai from Bihar. He is not suffering from post traumatic stress as would I suffer if I just had recently been held up by naxalites in Bihar-Bengal border. He had been looted of all his stuffs and even his rings which supposedly brought him goodluck. What is the opposite of irony? He saw 2 people being killed. He saw four women being dragged away and returned with scars and blood. His reactions don't have a glimpse of that occurence though the news managed to find a tiny space in Mumbai edition of Times of India. I desperately look for a cigarette. I found one. I went to the living room and opened the window wide open. Mumbai has no winter season. As
puffed away my conscious I looked down from 7th floor to the streets below. Dogs are barking. There are some people walking past our building. Two men are talking loudly or may be arguing. One is getting undressed. You think I would be interested not because the sight was exciting for me but because the scene was exciting, but I don't have the energy to gather interest. I look else where. Its 2.32 am. I again look down. I saw one man running away with many clothes and the other person nude. The nude person chasing the man with many clothes. What is the opposite of irony? It is just some 30 naked feet. The nude man begins to moan. The other person is no where in sight. He is screaming, he is crying, he is swaering. And he is naked.

Am I naked? What is the opposite of apt?

Its 2.36 am. I am sleepy and I go to bed. I see my laptop on my bed and begin watching Planet Earth by BBC.